I’m Probably Doing it Wrong

mistakesEverything I’ve ever read about blogging and increasing your readership says that you should engage with your audience by responding to comments about whatever it is you’ve written. Unfortunately, I suck at that. You see, when I write something, I’ve generally said all I have to say on the subject and I’m ready to move on. It’s my ADD in action, I suppose. It makes editing a chore, to say the least; something regular readers of this blog know all too well, what with all the missing words and such. While most days are like this, yesterday took it to a whole new level.

Given all the hoopla, I’m pretty sure most of you know that when the Love Wins crew showed up to do their weekly breakfast thing at Moore Square in Raleigh last Saturday, the police prevented them (if you’re aware, go here). Being a friend of (and a volunteer at) Love Wins, this “misunderstanding” really caught my attention; so much so, that it was the topic of yesterday’s post. While I was working on that, something I had written last week was generating interest on Facebook. Like I said, according to the experts, I should have been right in the thick of it. But, the simple fact was, I didn’t give rip.

The piece in question is titled The Need for Church and it’s about what I get from my chosen place of worship. To be honest, it was what I call a “throwdown piece“. Not that I’m unscrupulous or anything but, now and then, the muse doesn’t strike and I keep a few topics and half written bits filed away to fill in the empty spaces and that day was one of them. I wasn’t all that thrilled when I wrote it and when I had a topic that did get my blood pumping, I became even more lukewarm about it. For the life of me, I couldn’t bring myself to enter a discussion about where the church is, where it’s going or what it might look like in the future when there was some injustice to sink my teeth into. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I dislike the article or think the conversation isn’t needed. I just don’t care about it anymore.

While all this was going on I noticed an aspect of my personality I’m not all that happy about. You see, when I’m passionate about something, it bothers me when everyone else isn’t equally as passionate about the same thing. Logically, I know we all have different gifts and, therefore, a different focus. I know the conversation about where the church is going is an important one; but, in my mind, it isn’t anywhere as important as what happened Saturday. While I was writing yesterday, I kept getting notices of new comments on the church post and with each one, I thought “Why are you wasting my time with this crap? I’ve got more important things to worry about.” Of course, I conveniently forgot that I instigated the whole thing.

I’m sure one the blogging gods like Seth Godin or Thomas Hyatt would say that I’m doing it wrong, that my lack of engagement with my audience is a big part of why I’m not more widely read. Maybe, but I suspect my subject matter has a lot more to do with it. Let’s face it, some of the things I say here aren’t exactly easy to hear. But, I believe they are worth saying. If that’s doing it wrong, I don’t think I want to do it right.