Today is the Day

It’s weird, it seems like I’ve been waiting for this day forever while at the same time, it seems like the time has flown by. At one o’clock this afternoon, I am scheduled for abdominal surgery to remove a mass that may or may not be a recurrence of the colon cancer that I was diagnosed with in 2007. My feelings are decidedly mixed about all this, part of me wants to get it over with so I can move on, while another part would rather stick my head in the sand and just not know what the hell is going on. Unfortunately, the second isn’t an option; if it is cancer and I don’t do something about it, it won’t be pretty. The situation is not helped by the fact that only an idiot looks forward to surgery. I’ve done it twice already and that’s two times too many. All in all, it’s just a shitty situation.

I’m nervous as hell and didn’t sleep much last night, which I suppose is okay as I’ll be taking a damn good nap this afternoon. I pray a lot, cuss a lot and I’m a pain in the ass. Of course, that’s normal for me, but it’s are worse this week. But, that’s all about to be behind me. I should be out of the operating room by about 4 or 5 pm and coherent enough to post an update sometime this evening, so be looking for it on my Facebook page. Not sure when I’ll be back here, but it won’t be long. That’s for all your support and prayers.